Wednesday, 16 November 2011

Water Dreams: Dive Right In...

To Dream of fear of water means a fear of discovering your dark hidden feelings...a fear of diving into yourself (soul) and to bring out the light (understanding). 


Dream I got to interpret:

"For about a year now every dream I have had had water in it. Lately all the dreams have been in water parks where I am going down all the slides or I am jumping in a pool at a hotel and swimming. Some of the other dreams have been in waterfalls, caverns, lagoons and lakes. I am never scared in the dreams and I have no fear of the water. It is starting to bother me as I don't know what it could possibly mean."

Go fetch the hidden treasures in the Water...dive, dive, dive...don't be afraid, fear won't bring you riches...

Dream Interpretation:


Wow, this is a good sign.

You lack fear of water which means that you are confident in yourself because you know yourself.

The water is symbolic of yourself (your soul and mind) and you are not afraid of your own darkness and insecurities within - meaning that you can easily overcome it to strengthen yourself by acknowledging your weaknesses and working through them to come out a better person.


Your courage is a strong sign that  you are not afraid to KNOW YOURSELF - you have the ability to know your weaknesses, overcoming that inner demons and taming them to become your greatest personality traits.



The Chasing Web

Dream:
I dreamed that I was being chased by a huge black spider(s) like they were going to kill me but thankfully I woke up fast because it felt too real.



Different Interpretations:

* To dream of being chased signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is a metaphor for some form of insecurity. In particular, to dream that you are being chased by an animal represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal.

* You could be running away from a primal urge or fear, dreaming of "savage" animals.

* Spiders also represent isolation and keeping your distance staying away from an alluring and tempting situation, since a spider can be beautiful but very dangerous to touch... feeling like an outsider viewing the situation in your mind before just jumping in and making the trouble a reality. And therefore representing a powerful source protecting you against your own self-destructive behaviour.

* The spider is also symbolic of Feminine power or an overbearing mother figure in your life, as it is seen as the Great Grandmother Spider, from which all is spun.

* If you kill it without letting it dance for you, so that you can learn a great message from it, then it represents misfortune and bad luck... not heeding the wisdom it came to give will leave you in some dreadful circumstances brought on by your own stupidity.


 *The spider is symbolic of the grand web of life - - where everything and everyone is connected... your life's connections may all be catching up on you...things and people you used to avoid...not to face certain things is also a way of running...now is your chance to deal with it and get over it...or else the lack of understanding thereof will leave you spiritually numb...don't be scared of what "is"...accept it as it is and learn from it...you can only learn if you accept it.

Friday, 7 October 2011

Bulimia, Laxatives and Cutting

I wrote this to a girl who said she would vomit and use laxatives to stay thin:



 STOP THE SELF-DESTRUCTION!!!

You may think it is cool to pity yourself, to feel sorry for yourself, but really you are a miserable and pathetic soul.

Do you like being fucked up the whole time? Do you like being such a sorry human being?

If you have any self-respect left you will work on it to get yourself clean and sorted out.

Do you want to breathe in fresh air, or do you want to breathe in the rotten stench of your vomit and your shit? That stench is telling you just how sick you are within yourself!

Get clean or stay lost in your shit.

Some animals like to roll in their shit and they like it, but you are so much more better than that.

Only if you like rolling in your own shit and vomit will you continue your self-mutilation.

Vomit to get all the sickness out of your system, but never the food...let your mind gag, let your soul detox, but not your physical body...kill the disease within you, but not your body, if you kill the illness through mental work, you can save your body and your soul.

Go for a period of "mental vomit and bleeding" to get all the sick shit out of your system (soul).

Just take time for yourself on some sort of self-induced healing journey, that is if you have any honour left, if you still think anything of yourself.

It is never too late to make a turn for the good, and it is never too soon to make that choice.

To love yourself is to heal yourself, to respect yourself and to remember your honour!

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Rolling in your own blood, also equals rolling around in your own shit...stop being self-defeated...you can either be your own worst enemy or your own best friend...which one will it be?

Self-Harm


The Dream:


(read it like a story if you want to learn something)

I was with an ex lover and we were in an argument. Something was said about me dying or stabbing me and I went into the bathroom, took a huge bladed knife and right under my right rib plunged it into my stomach. I pulled it out and all this blood was rushing out along with particles of gut. I was in the shower and the blood and guts coming out was so much and it was everywhere. I got out of the shower and the ex called 911 but said it didn't look that bad but it was really really bad. In the hospital they told me they would have to take me to the loony bin and I said "why I'm not going to hurt myself".
Interpretation:

It means that you should stop beating yourself up over failed past relationships (as in stop stabbing/hurting yourself over things you couldn't prevent from happening).

You had no control over fate.

You cannot control the past but you can control how you feel about the past and how much you have learned since then...you should accept the lessons and wisdom gained and just move on.

The longer you refrain from forgiving yourself the longer you will feel trapped by guilt...everything happened as it should to bring you where you are today. Forgive yourself first to stop hurting yourself, only then can you forgive others.

Drop the burden of guilt, accept the wisdom gained through experience, be grateful and aim to be better.
Guilt is just another form of saying "I am afraid to let go of the past and anger."...to still be angry is to be trapped by the past...it is the same thing that prevents you from really growing. Forgive and forget to expand your soul.

To punish yourself is to keep your soul poor without progression. Break the limits of your mind to give it wings to new and broader horizons...breathe fresh air, the old will only suffocate you.

Make peace with yourself and then with everyone, and then enjoy the ride without self-harm holding you back.

Don't drive yourself crazy about things that were meant to happen and be, you can't hold it against them or yourself, just make peace with the whole "aiding in your spiritual evolution process thereof...everything happens for a reason, search for the purpose that will enrich your soul with its valuable lessons...take the good from the bad...to be a warrior is to see the purpose in all, the good in everything, and to learn from the bad...the past is to learn from and not to live in.

The "shower" symbol means that you CAN heal if you want to - you can be "washed clean", you can "become refreshed" with a new perspective on things...

The ex is the problem...the ex also ended up saving your life by calling 911...if you can see that by facing the problem that you can save yourself then you would be sane or else you would be lost in the ignorance of insanity...you would continue to harm yourself if you fail to understand that you can heal yourself with the poison of the past...

You can help yourself, but that is an issue of WILL, do you want to SAVE yourself?

Are you afraid to go past the brutal known, to the unknown? To be in a constant state of self-pity is to find the violence of the past comfortable.

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"Illusion holds power over you
when you are not able to remember that you are a powerful spirit
that has taken on the physical experience for the purpose of learning" ... "I have come to the conclusion that
until I find and heal the fears in me that I do not know about,
and those that I do know about,
I will not be able to contribute much that will not be part of
the many challenges we face – such as brutality, poverty, drug abuse, child abuse, abuse of the environment, and abuse of women, to name a few."

~ Gary Zukav ~

"Lack of self-worth is the fundamental source of all emotional pain. A feeling of insecurity, unworthiness and lack of value
is the core experience of powerlessness."

~ Gary Zukav & Linda Francis - from "The Heart Of The Soul" ~

"Changing the world begins with the very personal process of changing yourself,the only place you can begin is where you are,
and the only time you can begin is always now."

~ Gary Zukav ~

"By choosing your thoughts,
and by selecting which emotional currents you will release
and which you will reinforce,
you determine the quality of your Light.
You determine the effects that you will have upon others,
and the nature of the experiences of your life."

~ Gary Zukav - from "Seat Of The Soul" ~

"Emotions reflect intentions.
Therefore, awareness of emotions leads to awareness of intentions.
Every discrepancy between a conscious intention
and the emotions that accompany it, points directly to
a splintered aspect of the self that requires healing."

~ Gary Zukav ~


 


Wednesday, 5 October 2011

The White & Black Kitten

(read it like a story if you want to learn something)

The Dream:

"The dream was about two dead kittens; one white, the other black. For some reason I had to choose between them and I was only allowed choose one. I ended up choosing the white one. When I did the white kitten came back to life and I took her home. This part of the dream stuck with me and I'm curious as to what it means."



 Dream Interpretation:

It could have two meanings:

1) A difficult choice to make - as the one represented by the black cat will only bring you misery, meaning that if you pick the black cat IT WILL STAY DEAD, bringing you heartache and pain...but if you pick the other one, (the white cat), you will make the right choice which you know is the right one to take, you also know if you make the right choice that things will be a lot less difficult than picking the "black DEAD option"...the "black DEAD option" is also a choice you know if taken will have dangerous repercussions...if you know what is good and what is evil, why choose evil if you know evil could harm you? It sounds like you had a (possibly tough) decision to make, and you made the right decision, (possibly represented by the kitten coming back to life).

2) It could mean that you are currently in a struggle or battle with yourself - between the light and dark side of your personality, like the "demon and angel" within you...it could mean that you should not allow your inner demons to consume you, you should tame them like an ANGEL WOULD TAME A DEMON, you should tame yourself...choosing to be an "ANGEL" instead, overcoming your problems and insecurities instead of letting it overcome you...it is time to practice some self-control...to initiate self-discipline - to be GOOD, choosing the GOOD PATH...instead of letting yourself go by surrendering to the destructive darkness within you...seek to battle the darkness that threatens to make you "lose yourself" with the light of courage and wisdom...don't give in, you can do this...by picking the "Angel" in you...the "black kitten" symbolize thus the "demon in you - a destructive force which means that if you give in to it you can harm yourself."...so know thyself and your weaknesses and be strong, if you make the right choice NOW everything will be okay, okay?!!

Making the "black cat" walk while standing firm in your "white cat" feetz...   




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There's an old expression or saying: it's either black or white, no shades of grey (no in between). In other words, something either is or it isn't; yes or no (you are either completely for it or against it).

Monday, 3 October 2011

Self-Harm





Inside Lies the problem, it is the inside that we need to attend to...if we harm our vessels we would forfeit the chance to make a difference in the world.

When you take it out on your flesh it signifies that your soul is weak...and that your flesh is stronger...it should be the other way around...you shouldn't give your flesh the upper hand to control your thoughts...the physical was never meant to be superior to the spirit.

Your flesh is not meant to play victim of the destructive forces of your soul...you should not punish the vessel, but the thing in the vessel...your body has to carry you through life...it is then like a car with burn marks, rust holes and scratches on its hood or roof...it is how sick it looks in reality if we cannot control the demons in ourselves...we should stop making ourselves the victims - giving a pitiful view out to the world, that everyone should pity us, that they owe us, because in reality the world doesn't owe us sh*t, and we are the only people that owe ourselves something(s) and it is us that owe something to the world, not the other way around...we are born with a mission, to make a difference in the world...sometimes we like to feel pathetic like that just to avoid our grown up responsibilities - fearing life.

We cannot make a difference in Life if we Fear (DEALING WITH) life. 

We cannot ourselves take the Breathe God gave us, we do not have the authority over our own bodies...we cannot kill what God made to be promising...God only helps those who help themselves...take pride in your TEMPLE, LOVE YOURSELF, because God's Spirit lives within your body...if you defile your body you defile the Spirit.

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If you were meant to die, why do you think you were born then in the first place?????? you were born to live...sort yourself out, everyone admires someone with their head held high, and everyone despises a weakling. Life is a fight, if you have pride you will fight...if you don't feel anything for yourself then you feel nothing for God's Spirit that lives within you...lacking any reverence for the Divine within you...you were given a Breath, use it, don't waste it.

Friday, 30 September 2011

The Right Ointment

"It has been said,'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens, But its never gone." - Rose Kennedy


































Do wounds have to remain?

NO, you should find the RIGHT SALVE to HEAL IT,
     AND then the SCAB FALLS OFF,
            AND then YOU ARE WHOLE AGAIN.

Sometimes you just have to awake out of the illusion and stop hurting yourself...
any pain you make yourself feel is an illusion,
you have control over your thoughts, 
you can choose how you want to feel,
you can choose to stop sleeping the sleep of ignorance,
do you want to feel miserable?
if so then that is just pathetic!!!
You can choose to heal yourself,
have compassion and patience with yourself to do so!




any true Master has the ability to heal himself with the poison of his pain.

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

Let it Shine

Dream:


"I am looking for love: I have never met a guy who has actually liked me for me. So I'm going to tell you who I really am. I'm just trying to branch out and put myself out there for once."



My interpretation:
THIS IS HOW TO GET THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE


"LET YOUR LIGHT SHINE.
BE A SOURCE OF STRENGTH AND COURAGE.
SHARE YOUR WISDOM.
RADIATE YOUR LOVE."

(Wilfred Peterson)


Monday, 26 September 2011

Tears of Frustration

The Dream of a young woman:

                               (read it like a story if you want to learn something)



"It was the darkest dream I've ever had. We were sitting in a small town and my parents were talking to the family and usual stuff, so I had to go and walk from this boredom that kept me. While walking I heard strange singing in Arabic, and it was behind a small house. So I kept on walking and I tripped , as much as I remember, an old woman came for help and she was sooo darn ugly and the weird thing is that I couldn't take my eyes off of her. Then she helped me and she said that it was bad manners not to say thank you and that I wasn't raised well stuff like that. Then this  beautiful blondish woman came from nowhere and starting yelling at the old woman and she somehow weakened her because she fell to her knees and the blond kept on screaming at her. So the weird thing is, I found myself crying and crying and I couldn't stop it so the old woman was looking at me in this strange manner as if it was my fault... And I woke up.."

My interpretation of the Dream:

Coming from behind a house is like a song (or message) coming from your own backyard (soul, deep subconscious).

Maybe BOREDOM is making you act out all your frustrations in some violent way, such as screaming or bickering etc (the blonde girl also representing a deep aspect of your psyche)...but your frustration will make you "fall" (not in a bad or literal or negative sense) in good way you will eventually see that your "anger with your current situation in life" is meaningless, it would come to a halt upon this realization, where you come to a point of acceptance, making peace with it all, (that is currently vexing your soul)...

The old woman is you (that is why you couldn't take your eyes of her), or rather a wiser aspect of your personality...like a wise old gypsy...it represents your potential to acquire such wisdom for "acceptance"...to know that you can do nothing about certain circumstances and things, to just let it be, and make peace with it in the sense of making the best out of your situation no matter how your current life circumstances may feel grating at your soul, irritating you and causing you anxiety and illusional fears...when you see that it is unnecessary and unreal you can clear your mind and become more productive and focussed as you truly need to be to get done what needs to get done which is essential for your survival...to keep on going and to keep on moving without being hackneyed by distractions of petty value...sometimes things that mean nothing we give more importance to than they are really worth, sometimes to escape responsibilities and the discipline of focus by giving in to the destructive frustrations.

But any frustration is an illusion if you can do nothing about what caused it.

When you say that you were crying it means that you are crying out of frustration, but the realization lies in the tears - you can't do anything about it...and you know it, so drop it, release all the illusional frustrations because they can do nothing but hold you back...and as the "old woman" falls to her knees you repent, surrender to the Truth of it all...you can only blame yourself for your own confusion and feeling threatened by it all (as she looked at you like it is all your fault)...but it is all just a bloody illusion (dream as life is), so breathe, and open your mind to clarity and peace.

The old woman could be seen as ugly...because the Truth doesn't always wants to be seen as the wisdom (symbolized by old age) of simplicity (logic - the old woman, from young to old...how the seasons of life work).

..And then you said you "woke up" so let it be, amen to your impending Divine epiphany (Revelation).

And then the girl said:

"It's actually still confusing because last year I had the same dream but I saw the details of the place and scared me half to death." And I replied: "Maybe you are scared of acceptance...maybe that you are making it too dark a concept that is necessary...it isn't really that dark it just your fear that is so dark..that needs to be overcome so that light can rush into your mind."

Moral of the story:

I am going to stop being hard on myself and just accept things.  I know that I have been having much trouble in life over certain areas.  In truth, I am new at the game.  I do believe that we eventually change and that is why we should not quit.  The only sure way to lose is to quit.  Each of us has our mountains and valleys in life.  They come to us all.  We have seasons in our lives.  There is always something to learn and there is something to be gained in everything.  If you wish to be wise and knowledgeable in life, you are required to go through much.  You know everything from experience.  This comes from direct experience or indirect experience.  The things we learn for ourselves and the things that we learn from other people.  In other words, from either our own experiences or other people's experiences.

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Acceptance of the ugly is embracing goodness...

Reason: Everything happens for a reason and we should rejoice when we make it through and realize the lesson and have learned from it. I am happy with the experiences I have had and sharing them to educate others.

Everything happens for a reason...sometimes people who have the worst experiences or hardest tests in life are those people who God has greater plans for...God tests you and uses you...God is always one step ahead of you! You should touch lives with your wisdom gained through good and bad experiences, and your ability to do so will be measured by your inner strength and faith in God...see when you fight and do not give in, you have successfully passed but one test of faith...there is much blessings to gain in life for a warrior of God!:

Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes...goes into strict training...Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize. 1Cor 9:24-27


"Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another." Walter Elliott
Sometimes we look up and those short races have not only started without us, they are already ending!  we should always look up with faith...faith makes certain races shorter, even though hard lessons may be learned in that time feeling like eternity...


Sunday, 25 September 2011

The Dragon Says: "HELLO, WAKE UP!!!"

A woman telling her dream to me:

(Read it like a story if you want to learn to learn something)

"I took a coach to work. (Never do in real life) I was doing a professional observation of a colleague carrying out their work. To my mind they were doing everything wrong and I thought it was absolutely awful! I decided to tell myself that people approached things in different ways but I still found it challenging watching them do their job so badly. I decided to leave the room and get some fresh air.

I went outside and it was raining. A puddle had formed at the top of the street on a bend in the road. Suddenly I saw movement and a crocodile in the puddle. For some reason I told myself it was normal for there to be crocodiles at that point in the road. Someone on the path ran down the road in the middle to avoid passing the crocodiles and one of them just stuck it's head out and gobbled him up!

I was shocked but even more so when I realized the size of the crocodiles they were like giant crocodiless. Soon I realized they were terrorizing everyone and the more the rain fell the more appeared. The road was in trouble so I knew it was too late to get coaches arranged but we needed to evacuate and get everyone home.

I had to go up the crocodile road on my way home. A group of us went up the road on the far side to avoid the crocodiles but I told them how they could still reach us as we went past. One of my colleagues ridiculed me and ran past only to be eaten. While the crocodiles was dealing with them the rest of us used the diversion to leap over a gap in the hedge and run to building. It turned out to be a stadium/restaurant owned by some Italian people. As we were standing there negotiating being let in, to my amazement I saw a string of dinosaur heads bobbing past the hedge along the road down the hill, all different types of dinosaur. I pointed them out and the man quickly let us in.

We watched through an upstairs window as a stream of dinosaurs marched down the road following each other towards town. We soon realized that we should leave as more and more were arriving and soon we'd never be able to escape. Everyone wanted to get back to their families.

The Italians knew of a gap further up in the hedge in their field. They took us to the spot and we decided we all had to run together. We ran together to the stile but as the first person got there and looked over, they shouted back that it was too late. They turned to run but got tossed in the air and gobbled up. We realized we should run the opposite way across the field. As we turned to run someone ran screaming. I was saying no sound but it was too late all the dinosaur heads turned and their eyes drank us in. 

An Ankylosaurus crashed through the hedge swinging its club tail and lowering it's head to butt someone away and their body just flew through the air. We ran faster and faster, some people ran along the hedge and I called to them to run diagonally across the field as they'd be caught too easily. As they tried to change direction a couple of T-Rex's popped up and I wished I was further to my left like the other people ahead of me. The T-Rex ran up to one of my ex-colleagues and bend down and grabbed her head in his mouth, her face was turned towards me and he kind of paused everything went into slow motion and I saw shock, confusion, fear and disbelief on her face and then he crunched right through her. I kept running a fast as I could but T-Rex's were popping up everywhere and I knew they'd smell me out if I hid in a hedge so I tried to get to the woods as quickly as I could. The next thing I knew I heard footsteps behind me. I never got to see which type of dinosaur it was as everything went black."

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My interpretation:

Okay everyone in the dream represents and aspect of yourself, so the dream could convey that you are not happy about how you do your work, you know you can do it better, but for some reason you are reluctant to take better action, reasons such as insecurities, self-confidence, worries, anxiety, lack of self-belief, depression etc could be hindering you from doing a better job - you have the potential to be successful, you just don't want to use it.
The fact that there was so many crocodiles and people involved means that you are not the only one, or not alone in this whole ordeal (crisis)...many people have suffered this indecision before you, it is thus normal...but also you have the resources to overcome this...it may look terrifying now, but the terror will all go "black" if you make a choice to Face it for what it is...to face it head on (and) to overcome it...the fact that you are being chased means that it is catching up on you and the sooner you deal with it the better, or else it would overtake you and leave you overcome and dejected.
Reptiles and Dragons could symbolize dark forces of self - which could be destructive but also constructive if you have learned to tame your inner demons, using them to you advantage instead of your disadvantage - - learn from them, the dream is basically saying -DO NOT FEAR THEM AND DO NOT SEEK TO RUN AWAY EITHER, JUST DEAL WITH IT, and come out a better person!
Also the two dream symbols - "restaurant" and "stadium", could mean that you have to take a big look at yourself...focus all attention on you, and feed your soul with affirmations of self-assurance.

The road symbolizes your life path...and the crocodiles your obstacles...the rain could symbolize blinding your sight by your own devices.

Don't get eaten, when you need to be fed with motivation!!!

The coach is you traveling deep down into your subconscious to issues that need to be resolved ASAP!!!

(The woman thanked me saying it was dead on, and I replied: "No it is I that should thank you, many times other people's dreams carry meaningful messages to others." ...as that is after all how the creative force works - sometimes through others to you...)